I didn’t realize it at first, but she wasn’t a fan of PR – or me. My first hint was that she decided that me and a selection of others in the department should do a 360 review. That would be fine, but it wasn’t part of the company’s review policy.
I found myself having to compete against agency peers on client teams and was often excluded from internal client meetings. This was not what I expected from the ‘pitch’, and I noticed other, more junior staff, being treated in the same way.
This was our first project for a huge household brand. I saw our hard work closing the deal, and my financial projections disappear in front of my eyes.
I was summoned to London to see the sales director. I knew I hadn’t royally screwed up, but when you’re dealing with a hairdryer of a human, you never know.
I was very honest with my buyers. I told them I was unstable. Including that, if I was up at 5 am, I was still partying with mates, clients, politicians, and celebrities.
If you tell someone you run your own business, the next question they ask is, ‘How big is it?’. This creates a lot of social pressure to make the business as big as possible (regardless of whether that’s the right thing to do).
I dream of a world in which people doing creative work are able to suffer only their own internal pain and not be pushed through bureaucracy that causes them additional pain.
I'm scared because of what the people in these stories might say and what you might think of me. But putting it out there feels cathartic and unburdening.